Some people say that we are each a slice of the Divine and "God" or the universe gave us each the power and responsibility to create. Like some of us, our souls, actually create worlds. Yeah I used to scoff at the idea that I have the power to create even just my own existence. I used to read the "New Age" free magazines and think they all sounded so foreign and looney, like WTF are they smoking and did they ALL drink the kool-aid? I always assumed "God" took care of my life based on how I behaved and what I earned and what I "deserved" or if I was "bad" or "good." I felt it was based on reward or punishment I guess. Or what HE, God, had chosen for me. Ha... those days seem so so long ago. That old thinking is SO dis-empowering and opposite from the truth.
Now I am being shown that I AM creating my own existence with every single thought I have. My thoughts totally and completely affect my reality, and my twin soul, somehow and don't ask me to explain the hows or the whys, is inexplicably linked to me in a way where he is the one who shows me much of what I think about myself and love. He's like... in that role for me. Now do not think I believe I create this man's life. No. He's got some life that I know very little about, and I hope that my dear is doing well. But when it comes to how he reacts to ME he somehow, I'm thinking soul contract or "soul twin" connection or some kind of a "Soul Love Quantum Entanglement" has to show me my thoughts. He's kind of forcing me to finally, once and for all, realize I AM a creator being and I AM creating things in my life whether I like it or not and whether I like what I've created.
Something happened, lol. I've thought about it for the last few days, why this thing happened. And last night I think I had an epiphany. It's because I was worrying about something, and then suddenly what I was worried about was spoken to me to the 10th degree. As always, totally exaggerated and ridiculous but it has to be that way in order for me to clearly SEE it, and I understand. I can appreciate that "in my face" aspect of being mirrored and triggered by my own worries and doubts because this way it's inescapable for me. I can't ignore it or look away. I always know I am being shown something that I need to pay attention to and figure out, and change.
The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result, right???
Well I realized something last night. The Law of Attraction is real. What's written in the book, "The Power" is very very true: focus on what you LOVE. Talk about what you LOVE. Ignore anything you don't like. Seriously. Ignore it. Do not give any energy to anything you do not like. Do not empower worries. Don't complain about what you deem to be wrong in your life or the world because ANY single thing in your life, and little thing, you focus on will come to you. The universe will dish out to you whatever you are focused on. So if you are focused on, "I do not want to get into an accident in this bad weather" then you are just screaming out to the universe to bring you an accident!!! And that is because your energy is focused on the main idea of "accident." And the universe MUST give us what we "ask" for. It can't discriminate. It can't choose for us because we have "free will" to choose where we place our focus and energy. Also do not focus on the terror and badness in the world! Don't commiserate and talk about it and hate it. Instead send love to these people, these areas, these incidents but don't focus on the badness because when we do that we just empower chaos and terror and FEAR. Why, oh why, do you think the media keeps us baited and mired in total badness? Because then we continue to create fear, and we stay held down and powerless. Then we never know our own power to create freedom and goodness. We energetically generate more shit, more darkness. Don't get me started. That's for another blog post at another time!
I've know this for years and years, ever since that day when I said, "We will never be in a tornado" and then 24 hours later I was in a ditch on the side of the road with a tornado going over my head. In the blackness and yes it did sound like a freight train. I really loud freight train, but the eye of the tornado is {a great title of a book} amazing and how many people can say, "Hey I've experienced being in the eye of a tornado?" But I have. Total vacuum of anything. It was so cool- yellowish glow, otherworldly, and this peaceful sucking feeling but gentle. It's a moment I won't ever forget, and really ever since that day I've wondered... "Did I make that happen?" I wish I'd paid more ATTENTION to my strong ability to create all the way back then but oh well. I guess we all live and learn.
This is why we are not meant to call psychics asking for reassurance. Because we always want reassurance about our worries and doubts. It is why we are SOOOOO not meant to be commiserating on public forums, talking shit about our twin souls and our "hard challenging" experiences. Because EVERY SINGLE THOUGHT YOU PUT OUT THERE you are energizing and asking the universe to send you more of it. Every worry and fear you have can and will come to you in your reality because you are literally asking for it even when you don't mean to. Even when it is the very last thing you want! None of us want more debt or sickness or heartache but when we allow ourselves to focus on those things and fret and worry we are then only asking for more of it to come to us. Ugh, right? Let's stop doing that!!!
When you focus ONLY on what you love... then you are asking for more of that LOVE! When you are grateful and have appreciation for something then you are asking for more stuff to come to you that you can be thankful for. Honest to God I'd go to my death for this truth. I have lived this for two years and I am now ready to create what I want. I am ready to allow my destiny to come to me. I know what I love. I know what I am thankful for and I know what I dream about so I will focus on my good dreams and I will energize what I love.
It is best for us to totally and complete IGNORE what we do not like or what we are afraid of or worry about. Now listen I do not mean don't pay the IRS or don't fix the leaky faucet or go on and let someone abuse you or stay in a bad situation. Of course not. Use some common sense too. But here is how it works: "I am thankful to fix this leaky faucet because it means I have a home that I appreciate." "I am thankful to pay the IRS because it means I have a good-paying job." "I am ready to leave this situation because I love myself and I will think about what I want in my future relationship, good things, instead of bitching about or focusing on what has went wrong in this relationship." It's good to learn from our mistakes but it is not good to dwell on what went wrong. You will seriously only create more of what you do not want, of what went wrong. It is why we go through the same experiences over and over again until we shift out of believing the wrong things or creating the same lessons repeatedly.
I literally have lived this so clearly that I can see it all, plain as day. I know what I have created, and no I don't like it all. I LOVE James. OMG I love him with all my heart and soul. I love every hair on his cute little body! I am thankful for his presence in my life back when he was with me and he was able to show me his huge huge affectionate love for me, and I am appreciative of all the things I have learned through him since then. And I DO want him back, greatly. I love our love. I believe in our sweet genuine love. But I have created "other" stuff that maybe I don't love so much... and well, I have the power to let those things go now so I will. But this is why I have tried so hard in my journey to NOT focus on "what's wrong with him" or "what his lessons are" or "why does he want to hurt me?" or "why is he ignoring me?" or anything that points to his actions as being intentional or assuming any of this is how he actually feels about me- because if I concentrate on any of that as truth instead of just being my mirror then I am going to empower it to become more real and everything I created that I do not like will get stronger and strong until I want to throw myself off a fucking bridge, all of my own doing too. I know what happened. I feared that he would leave me and that he did not feel for me as I did him even though all he showed me was HUGE love, even though he told me he wanted to marry me and be my child's step father and create a BABY with me, all of my most special precious dreams were being manifested through my twin soul. But I was scared and doubted and fretted and worried inside. And then he left and my thoughts, frets and worries were shown to me through him as if they were real, like as if he really felt the way I worried he might or could, like I was not that important to him. And then I got scared of what I created and what he showed to me and feared it and it got stronger. And the cycle continued on and on.
It's time for me to break my cycle of insanity.
Ignore what you do not like or want or what you might even fear. Do not give those things ANY power or energy. Recently my parents flew to London, right after the Paris ordeal. Someone sarcastically said to me, "Oh this is a really great time for them to be traveling" but I absolutely banished any thoughts from my mind concerning them staying anything other than happy and safe. I am far too aware of how powerful my thoughts are and I just won't go there. I believe too much now to not at least be careful. It's all thoughts, honestly. I pray still because it is energy too, intention. Praying comes naturally to me so I prayed, "Dear God please keep my parents safe and happy and let them enjoy their trip." Turns out they had an amazing time in London and they are back home safe and sound.
This means don't think, "I don't want any other man besides my twin soul" because you are just asking for a man to come up and ask for a date. I did that. It happened. Only concentrate on what you DO want, what you love. Ignore the rest because if you tell yourself, "I don't want meatloaf for dinner" then you are going to end up with meatloaf solely on the menu soon. And if you think, "I don't want my twin soul to move away from me," then get ready for some physical distance to come between you because the universe WILL give you whatever you THINK ABOUT. It has to. We co-create with our souls, and I think they sadly dish out to us the things they try so very hard to help us avoid creating. I think our souls must be sad when we create our very own monsters and then we hurt and suffer.
No- I don't think we solely create every "bad" thing that happens to us. So don't go there with me because I won't fight that fight. I think maybe we choose things before we come here and then we have to learn the right way to deal with the outcomes. And sometimes I think the free will of others affects us, like a school shooter. If someone else chooses to open fire in a school and there are casualties then it's an unfortunate outcome of the world we live in. But we ARE creators. And we are meant to ALL create through love, only love.
If we did all create only through love then there would be no school shooters. If we all created with love then 9-11 would not have happened and the elite would not own all the fucking money while other people starve. There would be balance and peace in our world. But we don't all create with love. We use our free will to choose otherwise, and that is sad. It creates a huge mis-balance of energy in the world, the results of which we see in the news day in and day out. Yet we each still have the power and responsibility to at least TRY to control what we are creating for ourselves and the world.
I am serious about this. I am going to post an article that was recently sent to me, another "duh" moment for me because I am guided SO strongly but sometimes it passed me by until that "a-ha" moment happens, and it did for me this weekend. The article speaks to why we should not vent on forums and why we should not seek reassurance from friends and why we should not go on and on about the horrors of the twin soul union because it will keep a person stuck in "separation" for years and years until that energy shifts to positivity and love. True story. This concept can and should be applied in all areas of life. Instead of me telling me boisterous child before he leaves for school, "Don't be loud, don't disrupt, don't say bad things to people," I will only now say, "Hey have a great day. Make loving choices. Pay attention to your teacher. Be respectful to yourself and others because you are a sweet friendly boy and I adore you." Because when I load him up with everything he should not do- I am just asking the universe to ensure he does ALL of those things I am warning him against. It's energy. "Where focus goes energy flows." No two ways around it.
Focus on good, on love, and what you love, on what you want more of, on all of the lovely things you dream about. Focus on the goodness you've experienced in the past. I don't like that saying of "only live in the now" because it really is okay to enjoy old wonderful memories and to derive good e-motions {energy in motion} from those memories. E-motions create so we want good emotions and feeling a good loving memory generates good emotion. Don't get stuck there, and do pay attention to the now, live in the now, but it's okay to look back with fondness and love, and it's okay to daydream about the future. It is how we manifest and create what we want in life!!! Focused thought-energy and strong emotion put together equals manifestation. But doubt and worry kills the manifestation of our dreams because it's contradictory. Doubt and worry immediately begins to create what we do not want and then that battles with our dreams. Honest, it does. So IGNORE the doubts and worries. Do not feed them at all. Ignore and let them just fade away, non-existent. Only feed goodness and dreams and what you love.
Focus on what you love and more of it will come to you. This is positive co-creation. This is creating with your soul in a way that will make your soul dance in celebration instead of crying for you because you again created that which you do not want, that which hurts you, scares you and makes you suffer. It hurts your soul to have to give you the sad things you focus on and ask for. So don't do it! Ask only for love and goodness by focusing solely on those things you love and desire and are thankful for.
Yes- it takes strong will-power and a diligent "observer" in your head to do this. You must gain control over your thinking. This is why writing is a good form of meditation. It is focused, and write only goodness! Calm your mind. Control your brain, don't let it control you! And love love love. Love yourself. Love others, and for God's sake, your twin soul's sake and your own- love your twin soul who is showing you your creations, especially about relationships and love.
We can do this!
Happy creating :) I pray and hope and wish that we all create our very own "Magic." This song is totally about co-creating with soul. Enjoy. And I love her outfit ;)
Oh and for the record...
I pray for peace and harmony for the world. I really do. I dream of a day where everyone lives together, happily, safe, healthy, protected and loving each other. I dream of a day where we ONLY love one another and are caring nurturing stewards of this entire earth and all its inhabitants. Heaven on earth, "Thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven." "God" gave us the power to make that nirvana happen if only we'd all, every one of us, use it. It is overwhelming, isn't it, to think of the beautiful world we could all live in if we'd only live from our heart and souls? I wish everyone on earth would love like I do! *sniff*
I love Disney World and I want to be a Disney Princess, preferably where I can sing some princess songs because I love them and have a sweet voice and I am still look young enough that if dolled up appropriately I could totally still pull off being a princess. I've put some thought into this one already ;)
I love having enough money to do what I want when I want to, things that are fun and happy.
I'd love to do something in life that offers me everything I need to pay my bills, have insurance, have a home and money and take care "life" and security but it be something I LOVE too. Like caring for people or being a mom and wife or a job with heart where I help others. That is where my heart is.
I love my sweet, caring, humanitarian, empathetic, kind, affectionate loving James with all of my heart and I desire to have him, my Love, back in my life as part of my "home," like ASAP.
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