"I'm Never Too far Away"

Oh. My. God. I am melting.  This song.  This song is SO a message for me.

I have been reminded through song where to keep my energy and my priorities right now.  I am not always doing what I should.  There is quiet now and I can get frustrated.  I don't bring his memory back like I should.  Sometimes I dwell too much on the mirroring and then all the bad feelings come up, the untruth that he shows me, and I must- absolutely must- create more of what I know is truth {his love} instead of thinking about, dwelling on, or DISCUSSING, any of the mirroring or silence.

I KNOW THIS!  But do you have any idea how hard it is to follow sometimes?  Keeping my mouth shut is difficult for me, lol.  But my one TS friend and I have made a deal to just go inner now.  We are kinda not talking any more.  It's for the best for this part of our journeys.

I know why my guidance has told me forever to "Write about his kisses.  Defend his kisses.  Write only about the love.  Feel his love."  Because I get what I concentrate on.  Where I put my energy is what comes to me.  I know this.  I know this.  I know this.  I should be concentrating on love.  Every day I must write about our love, and only our love.  Good energy.  Why?  Because when I don't I then forget the real him and only the mirroring becomes my reality which is like... giving up.  It is about creativity, always creating good truthful energy, and yes always writing to him with love.

We danced together this morning, lol.  I shut my eyes and told him how much I love him, trust him and believe in him while Michael Buble' sang "Hold On."  I kept his adorable little sideways smile glance in my mind.  His chuckle.  How he always holds my hand when we walk and talk.  He always liked to be touching me in some way.  Even now.  Hence the songs.

Yesterday I heard a song that told me I don't "think" about him enough. Andy Gibbs' "Our Love, Don't Throw It All Away."  It says "You don't talk to me anymore. I am here waiting for you.  Please don't run from our love."  The song actually states that dreams must be worked for.  And to please let my love flow back to him.  I know I am not losing my mind.  I am being spoken to through song in an effort to make me realize this dude {no matter the mirroring he gives me} is over there aching for me, loving me still, missing me and praying for when I finally BELIEVE in his love fully.  It's been my main challenge because it all cycles back around to feeling WORTHY.  Do you understand?  It all cycles back around to HOW I FEEL ABOUT MYSELF.  And learning to believe my worth is a huge part of my journey.

I have not been talking to him enough in my mind or on paper,  Keeping our energy connected is a priority, and in my journey I AM supposed to do this.  There is no "letting go" of him.  I need to let go of the shit but not him.  If I made a piece of jewelry I should do it with an intention of him.  Of our love.  His love as my muse.  If I do a photo session I should think of him there with me, happy to see me doing something I love, and he will still always be in my heart.

So this song.  This song.  Damn.  "Our flame can never die."

"I'm Never Too Far Away"

Another night without you here
Another day still waiting
It seems like forever
I can't see your face from here
Wish i could remind you 
not just in a letter

When I see you I see us forever
You're the reason that I live
The thought of you keeps us together
You're my parallel 

Even when it seems I'm gone 
On those nights when you are alone
I'm never too far away
I'm never too far away
The love we share it makes us one
Time an space can't over come
I'm never too far away
I'm never too far....away
I'm never too far away

Give anything to be where you are
Give anything to hold you
Even for a minute
If I could whisper in your ear
There's something I would tell you
Cuz saying it is better

When I see you I see us forever
Ur the reason that I live
The thought of you keeps us together
You're my parallel 

Even when it seems I'm gone 
On those night when ur alone
I'm never too far away
I'm never too far away
The love we share it makes us one
Time an space cant over come
I'm never too far away
I'm never too far......away
I'm never too far away

Think of the days
I wake up to ur smile
Can't wait to see ur face
Baby I know it's been awhile
Sparks fly when were together
Do u remember
I know u remember
Our flame can never die

Even when it seems I'm gone 
On those night when ur alone
I'm never too far away
I'm never too far away
The love we share it makes us one
Time an space cant over come
I'm never too far away
I'm never too far......away