Purpose of The Silence

*For anyone who may stumble across this I am editing it as of 5-13-2015.  Most of what I wrote here last year still applies today except for one part.  I used to think that my twin soul was showing me that I need to be a "writer" or an author.  I used to think I was being pointed to writing for the sake of achieving some sort of destiny as a published author.  I no longer believe that.  What I now believe is that the act of writing, the act of writing goodness and belief and love, shifts vibration from fear to love and from doubt to belief.  Clearing away fear and doubt is one thing that leads to reunion.  THIS is why I was told all the time to write write write.  NOT so I could achieve some sort of destiny as a writer.  It's not all about "achieving" when it comes to The Divine.  It is more about energy and joy.  Also I no longer feel that reunited twins all have some "divine mission" on earth that consists of working together to achieve something specific like being a guide or teacher or what have you.  I feel the mission is simply to make it through all of the personal fears and obstacles that separate us from our twin souls while always always believing in love and truth as much as we can, and once we finally make it to reunion then the "mission" is simply to be love together.  A reflection of divine love on earth.  It's very simple really- mainly it all has to do with overcoming fear, healing and believing in love.  Being love.**

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I know The Silence hurts but there is a purpose behind it, and that is really the main focus of my blog- to explain how The Divine uses that twin soul separation silence, the "running," as an instrument of healing on many levels.  It feels like "ignoring" doesn't it?  And no one likes to be ignored.  I know when Joron first went quiet it nearly killed me.  Later I will explain my circumstances to show you a pattern but for now I want to talk a bit about the silence keeping in mind I am sharing my twin soul journey and what has been explained to me by Spirit through my spiritual guidance which is the voice of my soul: my soul speaks to me and I listen {and sometimes try to obey- I can be willful even when I don't really want to be.}  I do understand that each of our journeys are unique but I've noticed through people I've spoken with that there does seem to be a "pattern" that is followed when it comes to a twin soul union.  Below are some points I want to highlight but the most important point I want to make is this: your twin soul is in your life to heal you so you can be whole because you have a larger purpose on earth, a mission.  Your twin soul is a very important treasure who should be cherished not attacked. If early on in the separation a knowing and understanding of what is REALLY happening can be found, if peace and quiet can be accepted with minimal chasing and chaos, then "The Dance" can be easier, shorter, and the purpose behind the separation can be known sooner.  Basically you can avoid crashing and burning the relationship and instead allow The Divine to do its work without fighting {too much!} against your Fate and Destiny.

• First thing first about the silence: it is not by choice.  Read that again and try to understand what I am going to share here.  Somehow, and I don't fully understand it, they, the runner, are not choosing to ignore.  Instead soul works through them to keep them quiet, and don't tell me you can't see this happening.  I hear more and more often how the runner says "I was going to contact you but it's like something wouldn't let me."  My Joron doesn't really want to ignore me but as one who has twin soul energy he is an old soul, a strong soul, and that old strong soul that resides inside of him is telling him to stay silent towards me.  Yes I know all about free will, and I know how strange this sounds, and believe me even I still battle with it from time to time because no one likes feeling rejected but I've been shown that this is truth and my soul has told me from the beginning that the silence is for a purpose, and it is not by choice.  I am told that he is "Gone for Healing."  They get "shut off."  The love is still there but it is quieted and the desire, longing and ache is "turned down" in volume so to speak and it's like we get moved to the back of their minds while the rest of life takes over for them.  It's a little painful to think about I know... but I see it happen in my union with Joron and, at least for me, it explains the runner dynamic a little deeper than what I've read on most twin soul websites. 
• The silence first starts working by quieting the ego.  Their emotions are lowered and ours are left on so we can feel the intensity of the pain.  Why?  Because pain can be healing, sometimes suffering is the only spiritual teacher a person has available to her.  When you finally feel enough pain to where you actually need God then your ego will start to quiet.  When your ego finally quiets then you will begin to heal and in the healing there is peace {killed ego} and that peace allows you to "hear" your soul or see signs and synchronicity around you which are all messages from Spirit trying to lead you in the right direction.  When they leave and go silent it's an eerie void of communication.  A vacuum.  Joron went from being in constant communication with me to disappearing pretty much overnight.  It's not normal and after talking with other twin soul stayers I see there is a total pattern to the behaviour of a runner, and it's not a coincidence.  
• The healing process will take an undetermined amount of time and it's different for everyone.  The more you accept the truth of The Process and see this as a personal soul quest of healing instead of wallowing in the pain of "he left me" the sooner the pain will end.  Remember: pain is inevitable but suffering is a choice.  If you would like more information on the emotional pain body and how to quiet it then please refer to Mel and Nicole of Gold Ray Twin Flames.  Mel tells it like it is.  There IS pain, and there is healing to be done but you have to get through it so you can get further on your twin soul journey.  Joron's silence was used as a catalyst for my final healing.  It started a process that pushed tons of crusty old fear and pain out of me.  It's like the pain I felt over the loss of my love became an opening in my soul, an escape valve, that allowed allllll the old shit to come pouring out.  The pain I felt being purged from my insides was not only over the loss of my twin flame- losing him, his silence and the pain it caused me, was a catalyst to allow years of pain and suffering to be released from me and healed.  This is why it hurts so bad.  And it is necessary to cleanse us of the past, to heal us and make us whole.  They will go silent in order to play their role in the start of a mission together, and it is of The Divine. 
• As part of healing process the mirroring becomes very evident and it is used to make us face fears and see aspects about ourselves that need to be healed.  In my experience what happened is my twin reached out to me in the beginning after our separation, and often the contact was cold.  Aloof.  Totally completely opposite the man I knew and loved; I swear to God it was like an alien took over his body!  Invasion of The Body Snatchers- he became someone else for a little while.  HE MIRRORED MY FEARS and was overcome with fear himself so all he showed me was fear, mine and his own.  He became my biggest fears: that no one could stay in love with me.  I was terrified even before he shut off from me that I'd lose him, that he would stop loving me, and lo and behold: he did!  He felt my fear.  This escalated after he ran.  He'd send me short messages that completely mirrored my fears about him.  If I was scared that he was choosing his career over me then he'd send me a message saying, "Sorry I didn't answer all week but I was busy with work.  I'm sure you don't want a guy who pushes everything off for his science but that's me and I don't think I can change."  Keep in mind this is coming from a man who told me he loved being in a relationship, loved being in love, and couldn't wait to hear from me, loved being in communication with me and wanted to marry me.  Listen closely as I write this because it is very important to The Process that you understand: it's SOUL speaking through them in order to hit us with our biggest fears so we will notice them and face them down.  This is a very intricate process, a "Divine Formula" if you will, that God uses to force us to face our fears and heal.  I do believe the "mirroring" is all soul-based, soul-orchestrated so when we are told that mirroring means we are exchanging energy back and forth- it's very true, and it is soul energy.  Whatever you fear, whatever your issues are, soul will feed them back to you using your twin soul as a channel until you finally face those fears and show them down.
• Vices, bad habits, addictions- these will all need to be faced and healed while in a twin soul separation, it's all part of the purpose of healing.  I was shown the reality of ENERGY through knowing my twin soul and how this worked was through the "telepathy."  My guidance spoke to me often of the importance of my energetic vibration, that I need to be joyful and light, vibrating high, in order to heal.  Engaging in vices such as drinking or smoking lowers the energetic vibration.  Often I felt icky and low and I would turn to my vices as a crutch, the number one being drinking, and it just made me feel worse.  Well let me tell you... Spirit showed me very quickly that when I drink it totally derails the connection with my twin soul because it messes with my energy; my energy plummets and I'm left feeling morose and despondent.  In order to "heal" me of wanting to turn to alcohol as an escape I was shown how tightly connected I am to my twin soul, and how he "feel" me.  Soul made sure of it.  When I drink I feel low, fearful and miserable and that energy is transferred directly to my twin who then responds to me, normally via email, in kind with some cold, aloof and fearful message.  He is never mean but when I do something in my world, from 2100 miles away, that is harmful to me and my energy whether it be getting stuck in a place of fear and worry for too long or caving to getting drunk I don't have to say a word to my twin soul for him to send me a brief cold message that completely reflects my state-of-being.  Once I noticed this, saw The Pattern, and quit all my vices that mirroring of my negative energy from him stopped unless I allow myself to wallow in fear- then he may reflect my fear.  All of this was shown to me very blatantly through our sporadic communication which I will explain later. 
• On the opposite end of that spectrum are good habits, living life joyfully, raising vibration from low and fearful to high, loving and joyful.  What I found and was shown is that after a period of silence when I started to heal I would finally find some peace.  I listened to my guidance repeat over and over that my twin soul was NOT choosing to ignore me but was listening to his soul guide him through this healing process.  Once I found peace I then began to find quiet and inspiration to actually live again began to creep in.  Again this is important so pay attention: I'd do something "good" and healthy and joyful, something pointing me towards my Destiny, and BAM he'd contact me almost immediately and it would be a loving warm message.  At first I didn't notice the pattern but later it became impossible to ignore: when I believed, and especially when I did something concerning my writing, my twin soul reached out to me.  It is and was no coincidence and it is an important part of The Process that you need to pay attention to.  Their communication that is mixed into the healing silence, "The Dance," has a very finely orchestrated PURPOSE.  It is not random!!!  Pay attention.  Learn from me.  Don't allow yourself to get derailed every single time you hear from your twin.  Instead take a deep breath and a step back and figure out what you are being shown in the contact because soul is trying so so so hard, through your twin soul, to show you something.  To guide you.  To point you in the right direction.  Maybe in a moment of inspiration and love for your twin soul you jotted down a song lyric that grew into a verse and five minutes later your twin pops you one of those, "I was just thinking about you" messages.  Well my friend- that is a clear indication that you were doing something right in writing out that song lyric so pay attention...  and keep doing what you were doing that inspired the communication in the first place because whatever it is will bring you closer to your Destiny.

So to summarize: do something low energy and icky and the result, the contact from your twin soul, won't be pretty or you won't get any contact at all.  Do something high-vibration and joyful and the contact will be warm and reaffirming.  It's all part of The Process, and this is key: without the silence none of it would be possible.  It is that silence we all hate, the runner "ignoring," that propels us through this healing process.  You can dislike it if you want to but one thing is very necessary throughout the process and it is this: NEVER EVER HATE YOUR TWIN SOUL for helping to heal you through silence.  Have unconditional love for your twin for showing you the way and being a light in your darkness.  Your twin soul is sacrificing for you in order to help heal you- and your twin needs your love to heal as well.  This is all a big "Circle of Healing" where the silence forces us to turn inwards, just like the Goddess Psyche had to when Eros left her, so we can fulfill our soul quests of healing.  As we heal we need to be loving inside our hearts to our twins- and that love is sent to them via soul.  Unconditional love for ourselves, our twins and eventually everyone else is key in these unions.  Don't forget the unconditional love.  Stop the crazy chasing.  STOP pointing the finger at your twin soul and stop trying to figure our what is wrong with him {or her- I am not trying to stereotype here, just going with my own experience.}  Your twin's journey is none of your business.  Only your own healing and inner quest should be your priority.  Just love your twin soul with a strong unconditional love, an affection without limits, while you pay attention to what your soul is trying to show you through the silence.