This song especially makes my heart get all squishy and weepy when I hear it because it was popular when I was dating James. And I love it so I'd listen to it over and over.
I remember one night he was busy, out with his friends, and I sat writing him an email while I listened to this song and thought about how much I loved him, how in love with him I was, how lucky I was to know him. How I was looking forward to hearing from him later and seeing him soon and I was SO happy and excited to have such a sweet loving kind boyfriend. A real boyfriend, and one who was happy to know me! A man who wanted to see me, who looked forward to being with "his girlfriend" as he said it. A man who said "Goodnight honey" every night and good morning every morning. A wonderful sweet amazing person. He said he was so happy I was his girlfriend. It was perfect. I was so happy with him. I really was so so so happy when he was here in my life.
It is not a feeling, sensation or experience that can be duplicated in any other way or through any other person besides being with him.
Mother fucker I hurt. I just hurt. I love him and miss him SO much, gah. Just ugh.
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