Inner Truth

A few weeks ago I pulled an oracle card.  I had not pulled one in a while.  I got "The Hermit."  The Hermit is an old man who has removed himself from society to seek answers within himself.  Near him are books which represent the knowledge he has gained through study.  There is also an atlas nearby as a record of the many journeys he has taken and the experiences he has gained.  There is a magnifying glass that shows he needs to examine all of his beliefs to choose that which resonates with him.  Pencil and paper are near too to show his desire to keep a record of his findings so nothing is lost to forgetfulness.  He values clear and concise writing and lives by the motto "Writing makes an exact man."

The Hermit uses these items to review and assess everything he has learned, thought, felt and experienced in order to understand his own beliefs and to seek truth.

The card is about seeking truth but it is not an intuitive truth and not a learned truth.  It is YOUR OWN truth.  When this card is pulled it means to become a hermit, go inner and learn personal truth.  I am not surprised I pulled this card not long ago.  Another item to note on the card is a large full moon.  The first card I ever pulled from this deck was "The Lovers."  The lovers are entwined at the top and separated at the base, cut by a sword.  It absolutely represents a twin soul union, amazingly so.  But the VERY interesting thing about the card is they are not watched over by a guardian angel.  They are watched over by the full moon, and on this card the moon has a face; the moon represents a guardian spirit but in this card the moon is, get this, "the Higher Self."

Joron and I met under the light of a full blue moon on my birthday.  This Lovers card is very poignant reminder of the path I am on, the path of twin souls.  The full moon is present in The Hermit card as well, same Higher Self moon.

The Hermit card is telling me to own MY truth.  Mine.  Not only truth read online or truth given to me from a psychic or truth shared by spiritual people who think they know everything but my own truth. I have to understand my own truth from everything I have experienced, learned, heard from above.  I must decipher it for myself.

My truth may be a little different than others.  My path is unique.  I am being shown something different.  One thing I know is my Higher Self tells me to "defend his love" and to write about us.  Not detach, not forget, not move on, not any of that stuff.  Because SO many people insist that "detachment" is what will bring a twin soul back I have found myself battling between doing what my guidance tells me to {write about the kisses, defend the love, write truth} and doing what others preach which is "letting go."  Then I get all confused and afraid and I do NOTHING but fear.

Months back I was posting on Spiritual Forums about Joron, explaining again how I loved him and I believed in our love.  Well I must have pushed some buttons and someone told me, "You have no idea what letting go means" and she then so expertly posted a link for me to read.  I am so done reading links or being told what I don't know.  LOL- I've been through a spiritual war, to Hell and back, I don't need a freaking website about "letting go" to tell me about my twin soul and what I am supposed to be doing.  But at the time it frightened me, and I allowed it to color my reality.  Hence why my Higher Self banned me from the forum; my guidance knows better than I do. 

I am done with that, letting other people's words and opinions and experiences mess with my truth.  I have been shown to know my own truth.  I know Joron loves me and is meant to love me.  I feel we are meant to be together, and I am supposed to honor that belief.  It doesn't mean I am weak or co-dependent because I concentrate on our love.  I think the reason why this is my path is because I am so prone to doubting love.  For that reason I am meant to defend it, and defending it means remembering our time together so I don't fluff off who he actually was to me.

You cannot let anyone else tell you your truth.  I don't mean to sound trite but you really must "follow your heart" instead of just what is in your mind.  This is why if you really want to reunite there comes a time to get off the forums, quit asking for advice, watch carefully what you read, don't call any more psychics, and trust your truth.

That truth is what will set you free.